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Alright so heads up to all. It's finals week so I'm not gonna be online from Sunday till probably Wednesday night. I'm giving my parents my lappy cuz I know how I am and if I'm around my lappy I can get distracted from studying for hours on end (trust me I find my ways). Plus if I'm in desperate need of internets cummington is open 24/7, so I can just hop over there, if need be.
I got updates and stuff, but I'm gonna save that for a time where I'm in the mood to talk about it. Will probably make a post tomorrow when I make my daily run to cummington to print off my Micro-econ lecture slides.
So I came back earlier and got the tale end of scrubs. I normally don't watch the show (in fact I've generally hated scrubs when I've watched it) but it was an interesting episode and it ended on an interesting note. The main character's name (I forget) was saying that people feel lonely, and even if they're around people they feel lonely, this was especially true cuz the woman he was interested in that episode her husband was in a long time acoma and by the end of the episode she wanted to move on, he didn't mind but he constantly felt bad because of the story. Basically like I said earlier, the moral was that people are lonely, and need someone for them basically. I thought it was true and not. Looking back in my life, I agree with him. Whether I admit it, I felt like no matter friends I had no one could fufill my loneliness and apart of me that I thought I needed someone to dispose of that loneliness.
But this episode made me realize how that's not true for me anymore. I talked with merg today about how I am in fact an only child but I have brothers and sister, I have a family. There are all my cousins who I consider to be like the brother and sisters I never had. Then there's all the friends I have, who whether or not they realize it continue to be there for me. I have friends from home who will be loyal and true to me till the end. Then I have my B.U. friends who haven't gotten to that point yet, but they're getting their, but they still are great friends and a good group to be around. Like yesterday, I was sick before I met up with my B.U. guy friends but almost immediately after I met up with them I felt better. Sure they can be pain in the asses (and I sometimes feel more like their mother than their friend) they've grown to be my third family (1st=relatives, 2nd=friends from home).
To sum it up, I'm starting to agree with my mom when she tells me that I don't need someone to make me happy. I have something better than a boyfriend right now, and they make me happy and wanted, and I'm o.k. with that. For once in my life, I'm esctatic, content, and happy that I'm single and not interested in anyone. Plus it's better this way, I mean this way I'm not going into a relationship because I want to be a relationship (god I've done that so many times it's not freaking funny) Next relationship I'm in I'm going to like them for them, and god willing we will be happy. And I will make it work. As Chris says, I'm a funny, energetic, and generally great person, and the guy of my dreams is out there somewhere. And right now I'm content with that notion, becuz I have my family, and they make me not lonely. Personally, in my opinion, family totally PWNS any schmuck who could get some of this =P. Plus family will be there for you no matter what. Lol, bro's before hoes, chicks before dicks, kinda thing if ya know what I mean.
Alright should go off and work on this application before I become computerless tomorrow. :sigh:
Well good night all, and keep in mind, you're not as alone as you think.
I got updates and stuff, but I'm gonna save that for a time where I'm in the mood to talk about it. Will probably make a post tomorrow when I make my daily run to cummington to print off my Micro-econ lecture slides.
So I came back earlier and got the tale end of scrubs. I normally don't watch the show (in fact I've generally hated scrubs when I've watched it) but it was an interesting episode and it ended on an interesting note. The main character's name (I forget) was saying that people feel lonely, and even if they're around people they feel lonely, this was especially true cuz the woman he was interested in that episode her husband was in a long time acoma and by the end of the episode she wanted to move on, he didn't mind but he constantly felt bad because of the story. Basically like I said earlier, the moral was that people are lonely, and need someone for them basically. I thought it was true and not. Looking back in my life, I agree with him. Whether I admit it, I felt like no matter friends I had no one could fufill my loneliness and apart of me that I thought I needed someone to dispose of that loneliness.
But this episode made me realize how that's not true for me anymore. I talked with merg today about how I am in fact an only child but I have brothers and sister, I have a family. There are all my cousins who I consider to be like the brother and sisters I never had. Then there's all the friends I have, who whether or not they realize it continue to be there for me. I have friends from home who will be loyal and true to me till the end. Then I have my B.U. friends who haven't gotten to that point yet, but they're getting their, but they still are great friends and a good group to be around. Like yesterday, I was sick before I met up with my B.U. guy friends but almost immediately after I met up with them I felt better. Sure they can be pain in the asses (and I sometimes feel more like their mother than their friend) they've grown to be my third family (1st=relatives, 2nd=friends from home).
To sum it up, I'm starting to agree with my mom when she tells me that I don't need someone to make me happy. I have something better than a boyfriend right now, and they make me happy and wanted, and I'm o.k. with that. For once in my life, I'm esctatic, content, and happy that I'm single and not interested in anyone. Plus it's better this way, I mean this way I'm not going into a relationship because I want to be a relationship (god I've done that so many times it's not freaking funny) Next relationship I'm in I'm going to like them for them, and god willing we will be happy. And I will make it work. As Chris says, I'm a funny, energetic, and generally great person, and the guy of my dreams is out there somewhere. And right now I'm content with that notion, becuz I have my family, and they make me not lonely. Personally, in my opinion, family totally PWNS any schmuck who could get some of this =P. Plus family will be there for you no matter what. Lol, bro's before hoes, chicks before dicks, kinda thing if ya know what I mean.
Alright should go off and work on this application before I become computerless tomorrow. :sigh:
Well good night all, and keep in mind, you're not as alone as you think.
