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And I won't surrender
Jan. 19th, 2007 12:25 amSo I kinda have been thinking today about school and stuff. I'm having some serious scheduling conflicts, apparently I messed up my times for my history class and now it effects my CGS discussions, not only do I have to change section but I have to have split sections. CGS has 2 discussion that you have and you have a particular section, well because of the conflict with history i have to be in 2 different sections, which might get hairy cuz some discussions go at different paces. I'd already got the ok from SS and I still need to convince my Humanities professor. So changing my elective sounded like a good idea. Now keep in mind I've been thinking of going into education, then a girl comes up to me and suggests that I take ED 100 and I realize that if I were to switch out it would work with my schedule. So at the time it seemed like a good idea, so I was thinking of doing it.
Then I did some history reading tonight and realized how stupid of an idea of changing classes it was, cuz I realized how much I love the class (and it's only the first week). I mean yeah it would be smart cuz I could get a feel for education and determine if I want that path, plus it would get my credits out of the way. But I then realized why I'm taking History to begin with and that has to do with the same mentality that I've faced before: I never do what I really want. I've realized that this is the first course in awhile or possibly ever that I've wanted to take, not because it made me look good for college or fufilled some requirement or for my major (which in the end it goes towards becuz i need a couple of 200 lvl classes for History major, but that's not my point), but because I ACTUALLY WANT TO TAKE IT. I wanted to learn about European history 1900-present and I don't feel obligated to do well, I wanna do well in the course because I want to do well not because I want to do well for my major or my GPA, which yes still matter in the end. I told myself that I would do stuff that I, ALICIA DONOVAN, want to do. So yeah, I'll still keep the idea of switching to ED 100 in the back of my mind but I'm gonna talk to my adviser and see what she has to say about this year and what's to come. But until then I'm taking HI 232 and I'm god damn happy about it, and I wanna keep it that way thank you very much. And I'm proud of how dorky I am in the fact that I think it's interesting how something as small as an assasination of a duke led to WWI or how modernization was a threat to empires. It's those reasons why I love this class. You guys can think critically or what have you, at me all you want, but I like it. I know a degree in history won't get me far in life, but I love doing it, and like I've said before I'm most likely going into teaching, so don't criticize my decision. I'm not doing something that even though will give me a lot of money will make me miserable for my life, like what was probably gonna be the case with chem. It's my god damn life, and I'll live how I want to. So think what you want, you live your life, and I'll live mine, that's just how it goes. It's as simple as that.
Thank you very much.
Then I did some history reading tonight and realized how stupid of an idea of changing classes it was, cuz I realized how much I love the class (and it's only the first week). I mean yeah it would be smart cuz I could get a feel for education and determine if I want that path, plus it would get my credits out of the way. But I then realized why I'm taking History to begin with and that has to do with the same mentality that I've faced before: I never do what I really want. I've realized that this is the first course in awhile or possibly ever that I've wanted to take, not because it made me look good for college or fufilled some requirement or for my major (which in the end it goes towards becuz i need a couple of 200 lvl classes for History major, but that's not my point), but because I ACTUALLY WANT TO TAKE IT. I wanted to learn about European history 1900-present and I don't feel obligated to do well, I wanna do well in the course because I want to do well not because I want to do well for my major or my GPA, which yes still matter in the end. I told myself that I would do stuff that I, ALICIA DONOVAN, want to do. So yeah, I'll still keep the idea of switching to ED 100 in the back of my mind but I'm gonna talk to my adviser and see what she has to say about this year and what's to come. But until then I'm taking HI 232 and I'm god damn happy about it, and I wanna keep it that way thank you very much. And I'm proud of how dorky I am in the fact that I think it's interesting how something as small as an assasination of a duke led to WWI or how modernization was a threat to empires. It's those reasons why I love this class. You guys can think critically or what have you, at me all you want, but I like it. I know a degree in history won't get me far in life, but I love doing it, and like I've said before I'm most likely going into teaching, so don't criticize my decision. I'm not doing something that even though will give me a lot of money will make me miserable for my life, like what was probably gonna be the case with chem. It's my god damn life, and I'll live how I want to. So think what you want, you live your life, and I'll live mine, that's just how it goes. It's as simple as that.
Thank you very much.
